Let’s Chat.

It’s been a while since we last saw each other and a lot has changed since then. I’m older, wiser, wittier and slightly less cynical. A mindset I was forced to sharpen to keep me from going absolutely insane these past couple years. What have I been up to? A lot of nothing, then too much of something, now a little bit of everything. In short, the last couple years have been a whirl wind.

It all started with me feeling like a failure. Not only did I feel like I let my community down, I felt like I let myself down. I became incredibly self-aware. If you’ve been here from the beginning, you’d know I was already too in tune with who I thought I was so imagine the torment that came along with seeing who I actually became. Being forced to understand my true nature made me realize how truly unhappy I was. I became a shell of myself and everything I despised all at once.

Life got to a point where there was no passion. There was no enjoyment, there was no happy. I didn’t feel happy. One day I intentionally asked myself “when was the last time we felt happiness?” and I genuinely could not remember. My mind was in survival mode. I was operating from a place of lack mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically. There just wasn’t enough of me to go around. My days were spent worried about how others perceived me, doing thing to maintain their image of me, forcing myself to be the person I thought I needed to be instead of what came naturally. My confidence was low, boundaries non-existent and my voice was gone. All while becoming more and more aware of my deficiencies. I was officially in survival mode.

But you know what they say, when a woman is fed up. I became fed up. I grew tired of the expectations, the self-doubt, wanting to maintain this cookie cutter, perfection personified image I carefully curated my entire life. Now it’s time for a new beginning.

This chapter of my life is filled with love, prosperity, forgiveness, seclusion and just overall good energy. I found a new voice, a new home, perfect peace and I’m a couple steps closer to being the person I need myself to be.

Thank you, in advance, for coming on this journey with me.